These past couple days have been the worst ever. Who am I kidding...this last year has sucked butt! We went to go visit Steve yesterday and it was the worst thing I have ever had to endure. He looked sooo sick. It was unbelievable how bad he has gotten in the past couple days. I know I've told you before but Steve is amazing. He is like my personal Superhero. I know sounds lame..but true. When I saw him yesterday it was like seeing Superman crippled. It made my heart hurt. I keep trying to think..God has a reason for not healing him physically... but everyday I get madder and madder that he doesn't heal him. I know God didn't give him the cancer but I know he can take it away. Why? Tons of reasons flow through my mind but none seem good enough for them to take my Superhero away. I know all of this is my selfish human ways. I know I'm not supposed to be like this...that I'm supposed to give God everything I have and let Him make the call..but right now..I don't want to...I'm pissed. I fully believe that he devil is working in this situation. When Steve was first diagnosed last summer, I said to Steve that I think that the Devil is attacking your family and our new church. He totally agreed. I still go back to the fact that God can heal him and hes not! Obviously God has a plan..but right now..I don't want to hear that! All I know is that my Superhero is broken and everyone is left to pick up the pieces.
~Brit
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