Getting close to the end!

I love the fact that I'm getting closer and closer to my graduation date! It totally rocks. I feel that I finally accomplishing something big in my life. Yea, I've gotten my associates but I don't feel any sort of gratification from it. Three semesters left and I'll be on my way to education our children! I can't wait and I am extremely excited as the date draws closer :)

~B

I'm such a slacker!

I'm trying to get back into the swing of things. I knew this would happen with my blog. I start it then I forget about it! Well....I'm back and hoping to keep this going for more then a few blogs!:)

Passing of a Hero

Its been awhile since I've blogged..I knew that was gonna happen! Sometimes I just don't know what to write about. Sometimes..I'm just a slacker! Well, two days ago a really good friend of mine passed away. He was more than a friend..he was my old youth pastor, my minister, my friend, and I even looked to him as a second dad. He was only 32(He would have turned 33 Sunday) There is so much that he has done for me. He was the guy that helped me read my Bible everyday. He got me to preach on a couple of different occasions. He baptized me. He was my hero( like I've said before) He was an amazing man...even that looks weird..saying he was, instead of saying he is. There are so many memories I have with this man. It makes me sad to think that I won't be able to have any new memories with him in them. I know hes in a better place and that hes way better off then me..but it still hurts.

~Britt

Hurting Heart

I still haven't gotten used to blogging everyday..not like it matters because currently only like 2 people read my blog..which is okay..this is more of an outlet for me. I found that when I write it out...my head becomes a little more clearer. SO...if at times you read something and your like WHOA....I can't believe she said that.....Don't worry...it will pass. I write whatever I'm thinking and eventually I will figure things out. So on that note ...I'll actually write what I was planning on talking about. Steve is not doing any better. Hes actually is doing worse. I went to pick up his daughter yesterday and saw him for just a few seconds. He did say that he didn't want any visitors today...his wife said that he was having a really bad day. He was just laying there ...mouth open ..and looking like he was in terrible pain. I don't understand. I know God can heal him, but I don't think Hes going to. I don't think that's his plan. I've been trying to just accept this. Even if God might decide to heal him. I know that eventually he is going to pass away. Ugh, even writing that makes my heart hurt.

~B

Broken Superhero

These past couple days have been the worst ever. Who am I kidding...this last year has sucked butt! We went to go visit Steve yesterday and it was the worst thing I have ever had to endure. He looked sooo sick. It was unbelievable how bad he has gotten in the past couple days. I know I've told you before but Steve is amazing. He is like my personal Superhero. I know sounds lame..but true. When I saw him yesterday it was like seeing Superman crippled. It made my heart hurt. I keep trying to think..God has a reason for not healing him physically... but everyday I get madder and madder that he doesn't heal him. I know God didn't give him the cancer but I know he can take it away. Why? Tons of reasons flow through my mind but none seem good enough for them to take my Superhero away. I know all of this is my selfish human ways. I know I'm not supposed to be like this...that I'm supposed to give God everything I have and let Him make the call..but right now..I don't want to...I'm pissed. I fully believe that he devil is working in this situation. When Steve was first diagnosed last summer, I said to Steve that I think that the Devil is attacking your family and our new church. He totally agreed. I still go back to the fact that God can heal him and hes not! Obviously God has a plan..but right now..I don't want to hear that! All I know is that my Superhero is broken and everyone is left to pick up the pieces.



~Brit

Unsure of the reason?!

God tells us that their are reasons behind what He does, but we don't always see them. Well, let me tell you...right now is one of those times! I know that people have to die...its just the course that life takes. I find myself thinking that these people are all supposed to be old. God tells us that we can die at anytime. That we need to be ready for Him at all times. Even though I've known that God says this..I still find myself thinking that I and those I love won't die until we're old. I have been a Christian since I was 14 years old. Steve was the first person to actually show me God(he was my youth pastor) I've known him for 10 years and hes always been one of the strongest people that I've known. I went from being his youth kid, to now, being his friend. He is the minister of the church that I attend, a pro-wrestler, and an all around amazing guy. I love his family like my own. He was diagnosed with cancer last summer. This has been a crazy year. He has went from a stage 3 to stage 4 in a matter of months. In the past month alone he has gotten much worse. Yesterday he went to the hospital and today hes going home with Hospice! I also think I forgot to mention that he is only 32 years old! This has been a rough day..and if its been a rough day for me I can't imagine whats it been like for him and his family! In a little bit, I'm going to visit him...I am already anticipating tears. One thing I do know is that Steve lead an amazing life and will continue to be an inspiration to all the people around him(which is a lot)

~Britt-Bre

Whats in a name?

The name of my blog is Live, Laugh, Love. Why? WELL...Those three words are so powerful to me. Those three words are often taken for granted too! I am a Christian and one of the most powerful tools we have as Christians is love. Showing people that you love them is one of the most important tasks we as Christians have. Most people won't be won over to Christ with bible thumping. Think about the people outside an abortion clinic rioting ...are they really doing more harm then good? I think the answer is yes! Most of the time these people are Christians and they are trying to throw their Christian "weight" around! Boo on those people! The best tool we have to show people Jesus is to show that we love them...just as Jesus does! The other two: Live and Laugh are just two words that remind me to live life to it fullest potential. I refuse to be one of those people with regrets! When I die I want to know that I did what I was supposed to! I want to look back and know that I lived, laughed, and loved with every ounce of my being!


~Britt_Bre